THE TIM

Determination

As I watch my little girl grow up, now 7 months old, I can’t help but notice how determined she is.  At such a young age she is so focused and knows exactly what she wants.  It makes me jealous to a certain extent.  Here I am in a new city, with new co-workers, new tasks, new problems, and a new “daily grind.”  There are days I feel lost, unfocused, and totally UN-determined.  It’s super frustrating because I have always known exactly what I have wanted, how I was going to get it, and when it was going to happen.  Now, I feel like a lazy stoner drop out, who doesn’t care what happens on a day to day basis.  At this present moment my work and surroundings do nothing to motivate me to succeed.  My mother would say, it is up to me to make myself happy and to achieve success; regardless of the circumstances.  Only I can change that, which I know is the 100% truth.

For the first time in my life I can honestly say that I don’t know what I want.  Not sure if this is a bad thing, or just a necessary crossroads in life.  It’s important for me to take care of my family, first and foremost, regardless of what I have to do to achieve that.  My goal would be to work from home, start a niche business that provides a service/product that is in high demand.  Deliver this service/product in a creative and better way than anyone else.  Branding and name recognition would be key, however the NICHE and DETERMINATION is what will make it successful.

Crossroads in life always come and right now I’m at a 4 way stop.  Do I continue straight on the same path?  Take a right towards mediocrity? A U-turn back where I started?  Or, do I take the dreadful blinded left turn only to discover something better down the road?  I know which way I will go, but before I do, I need to figure out which vechicle I will turn left with.